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I lingered in the mirror too long…
Trigger Warning?
I haven’t eaten over 600 calories in a month, and i burn 200-600 a day through running/rowing/p90X. I don’t feel crazy tired anymore though, and I’ve gotten used to the dizziness.
I guess I’ll have to lower the limit and up the exercise.
I just want this to kill me.
mild on the way down.
flaming on the way up.
I honestly can’t even tell you if I threw up today or not.
My brain can’t function properly.
It never could.
fuck.
I forgot how many skinny people there are at track meets.
fuck.
I couldn’t handle fucking water today.
I kinda feel like I cheated the system. I didn’t drink any water today (or eat anything…) and I didn’t pass out at track practice.weird.
FUCK THAT, I got cheated by the system, I want to be normal.
I’m getting so paranoid.
I feel like whenever food or anything close to an eating disorder comes up people look at me.
I haven’t told anyone yet, I’m still too big for them to know.
getting defensive about how much you ate.
I don’t eat air.
I wonder if you would say that if you knew…
I need something sharper
