If you need to ask, you'll never know, but if you know, you need only to ask.

 

I hadn’t made myself throw up in a few months (with the exception of being too drunk) and I’ve thrown up for the past two days now. I hate being home with all this shit in the house. I prefer my orthorexia back at school over this lack of self control. Fuck.

shrinking shrinking shrinking
never really thinking
thinking thinking thinking
always about shrinking

Trigger Warning?

I haven’t eaten over 600 calories in a month, and i burn 200-600 a day through running/rowing/p90X. I don’t feel crazy tired anymore though, and I’ve gotten used to the dizziness.
I guess I’ll have to lower the limit and up the exercise.
I just want this to kill me.